feelings.

prelims is over. but nobody seem to be particularly happy or something. i think all of know that the biggest and greatest challenge lies ahead. even though there is a high possibility that the actual one will be easier than what we just went through. results will be back soon, hopefully after Monday alright. let me enjoy a peaceful birthday. really? birthday last year was crappy, i was fretting over promos. now, prelims. the two "P"s has haunted me for two years. so what next at uni if i ever made it there?

my confession

my greatest source of motivation is to win people. sorry to say this. i am a real real real competitive asshole. you guys know it... i think i cant generate enough motivation within me, and thus, i have to find an external source of motivation. which is, very unfortunately, being competitive. well, to some extent it is a good thing. perhaps the sad thing is, i have lost this spirit of my since going jc. i realised i can no longer be the best or even second or third (and the numbers goes on to 13). and for that, my competitiveness has fizzles out. just like a can of carbonated left open for too long, the carbon dioxide had escape.

to you, a friend

you were once my best friend/buddy in the foreign land. some misunderstanding and we are separated by a gulf. a middleman is needed to translate our thoughts. i dun want this too. but its difficult for me to stretch out my hands once again, like i did the other time. i knew you tried reaching out for me, but your actions are to minute for me to notice. if you do it explicitly, i would certainly do my part and reach out too. i hope you have identify yourself from the crowd and see this msg. its up to you.
*PS. dun you people dare ask who the person is in my tag board.

going to dhl balloon later! haha. am i excited? not really. i want my day to be a BLAST!