falling

i am bored, and i have a lot in my puny brain. so here i am again to vomit them out.

i dun like ppl to tell me that i am lousy. not sure about you. i think i am someone who runs away from reality. yes? one piece of evidence- my "fav" teacher. she always tell me and give me that look. and for this, i really really really dun like her.

i decided not to go sch on Monday. i know i will miss impt lesson. but i cant subject myself to the torture of getting back my SEA hist paper. which is highly possible, cause the teacher mark really fast. the feeling of seating on the chair, waiting for your papers to return sucks (due to limited vocabulary, i can only use this word). i am sure you guys have experience it before. is waiting at home better? i think so. you only need to read the msg, you dun need to have the courage to turn the paper over. another thing is that i have the highest hope for this paper, although i let myself down by not revising on the night before. so its really better not to go sch that day.

that moody feeling of my is coming back. watch out! haha. alevel starts in one month and 2day. the dream of getting into a local uni seems to be getting further. i have a lot to do, and i am not sure if i have the ability, the strength and the determination to get through this. life sucks.

LMY, i better see you in sch on tues. otherwise, i dun friend you already. haha. i am sure the rest of A1 and the teachers will do that too.

THY SAY

THY SAY:

1) i am so bored at home! and i feel so tire as well. reach home at 6 after going out with two idiots, esp esther. after she eat every mouth of the durain ice cream, she will say "so nice!" and i will never forget about the part when she lie.eh sharon, cupcake nice?

2) i am not going prom. its too troublesome, not my cup of tea.

3) go visit this website, set up by my classmate. http://www.forhers.blogspot.com/

4) Wear RED support those who died in the Burma crisis. and for democracy. and see what ASEAN can do. its very relevant to what i am studying now. even EU, so far away is doing something. as for ASEAN? haha. i am definitely not in a position to speak here. lets watch how the story unfold.

5)LMY, YOU BETTER COME SCH.

6) pretend i never said anything, or even tried to do something.

pictures and thoughts

yesterday- a day off

let the pictures do the talking.. but i din had a hell of a time, i was worrying about my results since 2plus i think. someone told me i will be getting my papers today. my worry was not unfounded. i fared badly, esp for the most important subject. this will get me prepared for more bad news.

my day started out here.

a great place for photo taking. and feeding mosquitoes.
inside the restaurant. we book the place, there were only the two of us dining.
food not great. the company was. as usual we had a lot of fun.

dhl balloon. goes up to 40story high. the wind up there was great,
so was the view of the red dot.

our boarding ticket.
us. lazy ppl din bring digital camera, so we had to make do with w800i.
rochor area if i am not wrong.

our CBD.


its like so unlike me to take photos. but from now onwards, i wanna capture every moment that i spend with my friends. even a simple dinner, i wanna take photo too. get it? haha.

my experience tells me that when a group of ppl go out, and in this group there are two ppl that are exceptionally closer. as usually, they tend to drift away from the main group. so who's fault iszit? do we isolate them or the other way round? i am not pointing this at anyone.

what i wrote in the previous post seems to be useless. i give up.

i am not a happy girl today. but thank you A1 girls for the very advanced birthday present. and ppl, should i go for prom this year? its at a good resort in sentosa. hmm...

feelings.

prelims is over. but nobody seem to be particularly happy or something. i think all of know that the biggest and greatest challenge lies ahead. even though there is a high possibility that the actual one will be easier than what we just went through. results will be back soon, hopefully after Monday alright. let me enjoy a peaceful birthday. really? birthday last year was crappy, i was fretting over promos. now, prelims. the two "P"s has haunted me for two years. so what next at uni if i ever made it there?

my confession

my greatest source of motivation is to win people. sorry to say this. i am a real real real competitive asshole. you guys know it... i think i cant generate enough motivation within me, and thus, i have to find an external source of motivation. which is, very unfortunately, being competitive. well, to some extent it is a good thing. perhaps the sad thing is, i have lost this spirit of my since going jc. i realised i can no longer be the best or even second or third (and the numbers goes on to 13). and for that, my competitiveness has fizzles out. just like a can of carbonated left open for too long, the carbon dioxide had escape.

to you, a friend

you were once my best friend/buddy in the foreign land. some misunderstanding and we are separated by a gulf. a middleman is needed to translate our thoughts. i dun want this too. but its difficult for me to stretch out my hands once again, like i did the other time. i knew you tried reaching out for me, but your actions are to minute for me to notice. if you do it explicitly, i would certainly do my part and reach out too. i hope you have identify yourself from the crowd and see this msg. its up to you.
*PS. dun you people dare ask who the person is in my tag board.

going to dhl balloon later! haha. am i excited? not really. i want my day to be a BLAST!

random

wee, prelims end already. wahaha. i am blogging in advance for tomorrow. really not in a mood to study now. mood come back, come back...

i slept at 5am this morning and i am suppose to wake up at 530. haha. guess what i was doing. mugging for econs lor. haha, i wish. i was playing my handphone actually, the powerpuff snowboarding game. esther, fun right? from 1plus to 5. and both my thumb hurts now. oh, did i ever tell you i miss my house bus stop because i was too engrossed with my hp game. the flip side of technology. but there was extreme cases such as those ppl who lock themselves in the room. well, hanphone get out of my life? no way, i embrace technology to a large extent!

i am looking at some food website now. i am beginning to drool.. check them out:
1) http://www.stomp.com.sg/stfoodiesclub/lifeeats/Hawkers_Steamboat/index.html
2) http://pachome2.pacific.net.sg/~mongolianbbq/index.html

lets talk sports...

soccer
my favourite! but manu not playing very well lately. its no longer that type of football that won them the league last season. but still wining, and that perhaps is the most important. oh, and the special one has left chelsea. the most shocking news i heard from my football career thus far. like what they always say, he has a colourful character, and i will miss him.

rugby
its rugby world cup time in France. bet some of your dun even know that. anyway, England might be the first defending champion to get knock out in the group stage. that will be a disgrace i think. they are a good side, but not finding form. and japan score a wonderful try against Wales.

tennis
Roger Federrer won another grand slam. not surprising right? its his 11th one i think. but its 4 US Open in a row. i really want to see him get beaten some day. call me an idiot who do not enjoy a very very special and legendary tennis player in the making. but seriously, dun you feel sick to know/see that he won AGAIN! haha. ok, at least dun let him win the French Open...
backed to the ladies one. Justin Henin Hardene won the US open! cheers, to the best player. haha. and she beat both the William sisters in the quarters and then semis. oh oh, serena williams was such a sore loser man! check out her post match interview man!

formula one
Maclaren got disqualified from the constructor race and were fine one hundred million dollars. and why? that's the price to pay for spying on Ferrari and apparently, using those stolen information. i think. but if the team is disqualified, why is their driver still in the championship race? dun you agree?

baseball
i still learning how to watch this game, and understanding all the short form for their amazing statistic work. haha. its a nice game, exciting sometimes. esp matches between Yankees and red sox. its like a rivalry between manu and liverpool. and its getting more exciting as the playoff approaches. i find a common similarity between all the big American sports, that is the NBA, MLB and NFL. they are all very statistic! everything almost have numbers for them. and i mean everything.

ok. i bet most ppl reading this dun give a shit la. haha. just let me talk sport for a while can. its all boxed up in me, nobody to tell to or discuss with. so i need bf that knows all the sports available in this world! he must drink and live ESPN,STAR SPORTS AND FOOTBALL CHANNEL. haha. tata. two more paper, fight on!

A1, REMEMBER TO BRING CALCULATOR ON MONDAY!

one hundred

the 100th post:

Sunday was a pleasant surprise for me. went to ice cream gallery after intense lib session with esther. haha. and brandon and zara came, unexpectedly. my two darlings! hehe. that girl is so weird. she refuse to let me carry her, and treat me like some stranger. and when i ask her, where is daddy, she replied, i dun tell you! naughty! sometimes i feel like bashing her up!

sometimes, i hate having long break during exam period. it only make you more slack, and you lose your momentum of mugging, if you had any to start with. after Friday's phy geog killer, i had been slacking since then. but thank fully, i spend two days in the lib, and that helped me a lot. otherwise days at home will be pretty much like today. as in its 3pm, and i have not started on anything.

i like to fall sick. haha. its makes me lose some weight, a very unhealthy thought though. but i always falling sick at the wrong moment! at the start of the one week holiday, i felt sick. and now, again! life sucks. its just like, when you are not taking this bus, it comes. and when you are taking, it refuses to come. and for this, life sucks!

human geog paper tmr. i hate it! two more papers after that, econs case studies and SEA hist. cant wait for next Tuesday to come, but it also means that heart breaks and more mugging is on its ways! a beginning to the end? not cold war ok!

my mum is in hk, she will only be back on sunday. that means i am a mini housewife now. as for mic, she will be back tmr. but i dun miss her that dearly la. haha. too busy to think of you! jk jk. anyway, i know you will be reading this: YOUR ECARD WAS SWEET. thank you! brandon's birthday party this saturday, i am really looking forward to it! my darling is 6! goodbye for now.

geography

steeping into jc, i thought geography would be my best subject. that's because i took it during olevels. the rest of the subjects are actually foreign - econs, history, gp. but, i seem to be exceling (at least a pass) in these subjects. why? because of the teacher? or just too much workload? teacher wise, i have upgraded her status to "most favourite teacher", those who went for consultation you know why?! as for work load, its crazy. my stack of notes just for physical geography is









THIS THICK! i am being modest.
ok, phy geog exam in a few hours time. i am really scare. so i came here to vomit all my thoughts and perhaps relax a little. haha.

prelims time

yes, two paper down, 6 more to go. after this Friday, exam life will be more lax. cause there will only be 4 paper in the next two weeks. nevertheless, hardcore style mugging is still required. i wrote my hearts out for the paper, both gp and econs. hopefully, hopefully. WAIT A MINUTE! usually when i have more hope, it always end up in disappointment. just a borderline will do.

you know, i have a strong desire to do well, i mean who don't. i wanna do it for myself, my friends supporting me, and my family (who always say fail also never mind). and i believe I CAN DO IT! I BELIEVE. so fellow counterparts, have that believe in yourself too, it will make life easier. let me reiterate my stand that prelims don't mean anything, well, not much at least.

oh, thanks Sharon for accompanying us for lunch today. although you din eat, it was a good time to show case your snow queen-ness, i.e. cold jokes maker. haha. thanks. and mic, your msg in the morning. THANK YOU!

class outing pictures before holiday, also the day where everyone skip school. i bet my teacher got a real shock (ahem...). as a result, she din come, as promised. i think i look cute in the second picture. haha. to those who miss me, savour this pictures alright!

crunch times

went for dinner today at miss clarity cafe. its nice, and oh man, so fattening. the dish i order was a feast for carnivores. its called old MacDonald had a farm, indeed, i had steak, lamb, chicken, sausage, ham, bacon, egg and pork (poke for michelle). yupe, all in one dish. this place is cheap and good.

i am so tire now. i slept at 4am today. you know why? i was playing my handphone game. and trying to be disciplined, i have deleted all my games already. FOCUS FOCUS. recently, i been watching tennis again. its the US open. OMG, you guys should have look at the interview of Serena Williams after she lost. such a sore loser. and the video was really hilarious.

Prelims starts on Monday.
All i want for Christmas is my two front teeth. Christmas not here yet though. so, ALL I WANT FOR PRELIMS IS FIVE... RESPECTABLE GRADES.

i am trying hard to spice my very mandatory post.