i need an escape route

its been a tiring week. mei mei has not been to sch for the past three days (mon-wed). which is driving me crazy, because she stays at home and @#$#$%$^$. haha. i dun wish to elaborate things. imagine it yourself! its just very tiring and my aunt says my black eye ring is coming out!

brandon is such a big boy now. from coining the name "cutie" when he was a baby boy to now, a pri 1 boy! this boy only talks to me about pokemon nowadays. i can anticipate his next word, esp aft playing pokemon. haha. and he is really cute. he actually fake to have tummy ache and pretend to lie on the sofa. a few seconds later, that smirk of his appeared.

as for zara, still so puny in size. but she is smart, street smart to be exact. words like "how dare you bath for me" and "not funny you know" can actually come out of her mouth. she is not even 4 years old yet. cant imagine what she will be when she grows older.

chinese new year is coming! but i am not excited at all, except for those hongbao that i can imagine, feeding my bank account.

i feel that the above few paragraphs, shows that i am ageing. not fast enough to be considered the ageing population though. back in sec one/two, brandon was only a baby. now, he is in primary 1. as for me, hitting 20 in less than 8 months. hia... protection shield and saftey net disappears slowly as you approach the bigger numbers. i feel that i am not prepared yet.

oh, i saw a post on xxx's blog. and i need enlightenment on that. perhaps, what comes around goes around. oh thy, drop it. and you will be better.

alright, enough of all this. i am going for my breakfast now, and then to my second home.

niggling

i think i had a great weekend. so far so good, to top it off, man u will get into the next round of FA cup successfully later tonight. lets see what i have done over this weekend...

Saturday.
met hui yu. we went for porridge buffet. well, the food was no great, but the accompany was. such a cliche phrase. i know i know. oh and hy brought one shirt and one polo tee at suntec for only 29bucks. and they gave her a nice "plastic" bag as well. its quite amazing cause things are soo expensive due to inflation, which is a rise in prices.

the food dun look appetising. but it was something new, rather than boring old crystal jade.

after buffet and shopping, i went to my aunt's place for BBQ. it was a birthday party for my grandma. and also to make use of the place, before she sells it. anyway, that place is great. wonder if i could ever afford a house like this. anyway, i will let the pictures do the talking.

a quarter of my pay, and i had less than five mouths of it.

a future tennis star in the making? so cute.

not a good shot, but i love this pool. and i am inspired to slim down and wear a swimming suit now. haha.
cosy cosy. my aunt said that she wants to rent down that space with that chair as her house and the bbq pit to cook and common toilet to bath.

Sunday.
went shopping with my mum. cant find anything. saw a pair of lacoste shoe that i liked, but too bad, not size. oh well, it might be a Chinese new year without new clothes.

despite a pleasant weekend, i dun feel good. perhaps because that DAY is drawing near. or perhaps it was because of you. i think you know who you are. i can only say that i feeling this way now because i care. for results or for you, the more hopes you have on something, the greater the disappointments.

thy out!

not that easy

well, let me made clarification guys. my job is not as easy as you think. certainly is seems easy, sounds easy to eat ruan fan. this fan that i thought was ruan has become ying. in this job, you have to give your best, no slacking. once you slack, the person at the losing end will be my two babies and my grandma, to a certain extend. how can i allow that to happen?! beside, i am not highly paid ok, although i dun have much expenses.

and my aunt aptly introduce two words to me: moral obligation, as a granddaughter,niece and cousin. i wont say that i am indispensable. but certainly very very handy considering that my aunt dun comes home early. and now, with my grandmother's hand in this state, add a "very" to the handy part.

met Jeanette for lunch on Tuesday. and she calls me an obassan. true enough, that word sums up my job scoop. but i am a very modern one ok.

oh, but sharopova seems to be having an easy ride at Australian open. well, she made it easy. beating henni hardene and jankovic in straight sets leh. ya i know, out of point right?

the truth

seems like olevels result might be out soon. probably this week, if my source (jac) is correct. another thing confirming this speculation would be the poly open house. this normally leads up to release of the results.

but wait a minute...

i took alevel last year. why should i be speculating about the release of olevel?! well, unfortunately there is a strong correlation between the date of release for both exams. like what sharon said, release of olevel= release of MINE results!

i think my life is good now. can i freeze time? or rather, freeze my growing up process. i just wanna stay at home to eat "ruan fan". but eh, my job not that simple as well ok! and thus, i would sing, "if growing up never comes."

moving on to another topic.
the truth is, i no longer love you/your like yesterday. it seem so sudden. wonder when it developed. i think its an accumulative feeling (not that i fake around in the past). i would hold on to the memories we shared, but i would not dare dream of more.

happy.

yuppie! manu won 6-0! and most of the goals are what you call beautiful football. a pity Rooney did not score. and playing pool on thursday!! haha.

there has not been anything much in my life as i am staying at grandma house always. so i have planned to blog different topics. with the aim to introduce more of myself- childhood, family and friends. so stay tune for more. the next special post will be -- MY BEST FRIEND. sound like a primary school composition.

thats all for now.

indulgence

Hello LMY, i am blogging for you to read. in case you curse me for not updating my blog. erm, but i think you should update yours first!

nothing much to talk about my life. been doing the same stuff everyday at my grandma house.

let me talk about mini indulgence. since the exams ended, i got quite a number of stuff for myself (some my money and some not). comparing to my usual standard, its quite a number. but as compared to those shopaholics or some filthy rich person, the number is insignificant. i think going on a mini indulgence like this make me feel happy, not considering the pain that burn a hole in your pocket.

saw a picture while i was doing my usual blog reading activities. saw a picture. it was supposed to excite me and make me smile. but it did not. looks like i dun really bother about such things anymore.

picture time!:

drawn by brandon, coloured by me! this boy can draw.
4th jan: food food food!

boring fish and chips! meatball pasta.
ae, monster's feet noodle. haha. jk jk. its chcken feet noodle.

alright, have to go.
i will be introducing my best friend soon, so say tune for more. haha.

行行出状元

as the saying 行行出状元 goes, every job brings you to a different level on various job scope, and that you will be master in that job.

as a pen promoter, the record is of course to sell as many pens, possibly everyone of them to be those $122 set. as a char kuay teow hawker, you want to fried as many plate as possible. as for Jeanette, she wants to push her student up to NA. as for hui hui , she will want to provide the best service and not make mistake. as for esther and nic, they will want to promote as much as possible.

as for me? i dunno. perhaps to nag at Brandon for a continuous 20mins. make sure that little monster finishes her food without much trouble. complete all my task in record time.

the moral of this post? hmm... take pride in whatever you do. and that there is always a pinnacle that can reached, no matter what job you are in.

boring post huh? yes, cause i am bored now.

new job?

two days into my baby sitting, and i am loving it. i think so.

well, its not exactly a job. kinda a routine for me, apart from bathing Brandon, and putting in more commitment. and now, i am being paid to for it. so, since someone is paying for your routine, i suppose its a A grade job. just like sports player, they are being paid millions and millions to play their game. i suppose its kinda the same theory, just that i am not that highly paid.

oh, so it was class dinner yesterday. i wish more could have come, but since everyone is busy, i should not be asking for more. 10/15 was the attendance yesterday, pretty good for a class without much class bond and unity. i think this could well be the new order soon, for many of us. once we get a job after studies, time will not always be considerate and allow you merry making time as and when you want it. so cherish the time now.

haha, little monster is coming back soon. tata.

a visual look at 2007 (almost)

January- town trip
at paragon toilet

February- Chinese new year

haha, my aunt say any pictures on blog have to be checked. but i think they all look great here. so cute.

March-Hong Kong trip

on the plane with the 2 kids. they simple light up my life. definitely, with a doubt!

May- Hui yu and Debra's birthday

at topshop vivo city.

hui yu's present. done by melissa, shh and i. haha.

June-sentosa+another town outing

sentosa. i remember feeling wild that day.

ice cream gallery

July- month of birthdays (i dunno why i dun have any pictures for jac birthday)
- Duck+Dhl tour

a very special cake. i am not blaming anyone alright!
duck+hippo tour.
at MOS. melissa's birthday

August-Rs's birthday, nydc class dinner

Pete's place toilet.

at suntec city. a memorable day, the whole class skip school. i can see the teacher fuming. haha. September

October- zoo, birthday, last day of school

artistic hui yu? one big family?
the day i had been waiting for- last day of school.
November- mic birthday (where is all the pictures?)

December
new year eve (actually i think this picture was taken on jan 1)

After seeing all the pictures, spot the similarity.

answers:
1) a very small social circle
2) a limited wardrobe
3) a perfect memory
4) thy is miss very-free

sentimental

whenever ppl write notes or cards or letters to me, most will say "dun throw it away!" ok, i dun alright. was packing my stuff and took a few photos to show how sentimental i am. haha.

my collections dates back all the way to primary 4/5 i think. early parts were contributed from Rozanne. shh... i dun need you to elaborate the rest of the story. so here goes...

spot yours? if you cant, start writing to me!!!

i even kept such small pieces of gift tag. *claps*
from my dear aunt when she was studying abroad.
i need a new box file! its over fed!

when i was packing, i saw this progress report. i was shock! who could have given me such comments. eh, please, first time in my life i had such a remark. except for the intelligent part la! haha. anyone remember who was our teacher then? it was in secondary 3, term 1. i think i must have hated her A LOT! otherwise i am usually very controlled. i din even do any rude things to my "fav" lor

year end review- family, friends, myself, man u

backed to continue with my year end review, though its 2008 already. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys! may all of us worked hard and with a touch of good fortune, able to complete all of the new year resolution that we have set.

year end review- family
as usual, i would put a tick on the box that says "a lousy year." first, my great-grandmother passed away. i am not sure if there is much side effect in this. everyone at home seems to be living normally, except for my grand father i think. then again, i dun really know how my auntie their feel la. the funeral was not really an emotional affair. i think most ppl accept the fact that she is old and that the time is up. why live and suffer?

the funeral itself was an amazing thing. some ppl in the family (those not really related to me) acted as if they were the guest. they came and go, not really helping to do anything. such action kinda pist my own family off. the death of my ggm also signifies the death of the big tan family, and the start of some family politics.

at home, things were not so rosy as well. i guess i have gotten used to the usual squabbles and problems. as for this, i would not elaborate, some things are best kept within ourself. right before 2007 is ending, my grandma fell and she has a fractured arm now. argh, i told you this year was shit! hopefully, no more of such incidents.

alright, i will not be bias and write an 80-20, the golden rule of Gp. some good things? erm, the successful hong kong trip in march and the Christmas party (almost full attendance). that's about all.

year end review- friends
as for this category, much to say, but dun wish to say much as well. the failed attempts to bring everyone together again was one of the biggest disappointments this year. i had set my goals high and only to realise it was a total failure and wishful thinking on my part and some others. at the end of the day, i felt that i kinda being scolded for what i tried to do.

friendship with some seem to be fading as well. like what someone always say, when you feel uncomfortable, you wont feel like going out at all. that's what i am feeling now. so, to some of you, i bid a temporary goodbye. lets eat a time out, maybe things will be better.

year end review- myself
its kinda hard to put a paragrah for this section. i dun really think i have grow to become more mature. as, i have already been quite mature. haha. well, i must say, whatever i am exposed to in school have shaped me to become someone who speaks up more for the many things i see in this society.

year end review-man u
kinda a crappy year. results on boxing day were utterly dissapointing. why cant the year end on a high? why does it have to follow the start? is this the reason why there is a proverbs saying, you tou you wei? well, champions league were the best so far. 5 wins in 5 starts. what more can i ask for? but it will be a tricky matches againt lyon. but manu have more than enough quality to overpower them.


after reading this two post, i dun quite see anything good about 2007. like the fireworks yesterday, good and beautiful moments were short. some will be deeply entrenched, some not. in my case, it was the latter. 2007 was memorable, in a bad way.

hopefully 2008 will be better, despite the release of the results. as mr hendri always say, results is not everything. take that with great considerations guys, because some things are just not meant to be. as long as good>bad, i will be happy. BUT being still a student, grades are kinda everything for now. so i am taking back those words above. haha.

another point to add on, i am no longer holding the blue concession pass i have been using for 7 years. kinda sad to see all my benefits taken away. no more travelling for fun ya. approaching 20 in exactly 10months time. what lies ahead? i wont know. just take everything with an open heart and i will do just fine, meaning i should worry less.