my future.

i was having a chart with sharon on my way home today. we were talking about the standard of our school and those in the same "ivy" league as us. seriouslly, it seems that the students that are going to graduate from these school, either they make it to uni or not, is going to have pretty much the same ending. that is not going to be very successful in the future.

we took our teachers as examples. two from rjc, one(my "favourite") from hci... and i ponder on this topic on the train. and came up with more evidences. my aunts. those that are from good jc, are good now. those from not so good jc, not so good la. but i have to concede that i am looking only at the minorities.

i fear for my future now. my ambition is to become a successful career women, not having to depend anyone for anything. the feeling of asking sucks, don't you think so? where will i be in 10 years time? will i just be some junior member of a company? or a high flyer? certainly, i hope very much for the later.

oh ya, i has mock econs prelim exams today. it was in the lecture hall, needing to complete 3 essay in 2hr15mins. after writing my first essay, i was staring at the others. i did not have anything to write for my next two essay. they were practically crap. and this is a very very very scary feeling. everyone seems to be writing so hard, time was precious for them. as for me? time seem to be passing by so s.l.o.w.l...y. when this happen, it only goes to shows that you did not study and you can only pray that they are writing crap. haha. i am so mean. come on, major exams is about the bell curve, you write crap and i stand to gain. but of course, i will want everyone to do well. i am so selfish, sorry! at least i am honest.

this is the time where you really think you should buck up. even the slackest class in my class was writing furiously.good for you. i had better wake up, nicholas, you too. and many of us too..
hmm..today i did nothing but to watch tv, type , eat and sleep. indeed i have woken up.