depressing.

i din go school today. but guess what?!

the first msg i saw in my phone was that i got a big fat C for my PW! frankly speaking, that is a bad result la. although it is still a band 2 grade, but it is the lousiest of the band 2 grade. this is a true disappointment, i had really expected a better grade. Especially when my teacher said that my group is performing well... performing well equals C! allright, looks like i have to live with t then.

then i discuss a sensitive issue with hy. its been a problem that has been mugging me for years. its always the same old thing, why cant everyone be accomodating? its difficult to be a filling in a huge sandwhich you know?! why dun you ppl just squeeze me out of the sandwhich and leave me alone. perhaps, i will just appreciate it better. enough of saying, a less than 4 person outing will be the trend from now on, if i am not the organizer. do i look like i have nothing better to do?

well, school realy sucks. the tests i got back all displayed negative results. even though some are passes, but its borderline pass. at the rate i am going, i am not going anywhere next year. got selected for motivation talk and i have to attend GP remedial. my JC life is falling apart from this moment. i can no longer afford to smile at borderline passes. neither can i afford to ignore my bottom grades hopping that they will climb soon.

the catalyst for all these paragraphs have to be my PW result. this is perhaps the only subject that i had high expectations for. and look what my high expectation turn out to be! this can only confirm my theory that i have hold for many years: the more you expect, the more disappointed you will be!

ok, i am being narcissistic again. one of the things i learnt from GP yesterday. Fellow bloggers, take note of the word. but then again, you might argue that a blog is a personal diary and thus it is appropriate to blog about you, yourself and you.

goodbye for now. please leave me alone if you are going to worsen the situation i am in now.