a message for everyone.

Just as if i am wondering if anyone is reading this, i am still continuing to blog. dumb right? Blogging for no one to read. haha.. i am actually using this blog as an outlet for me, for me to vent my frustration, for me to tell you something, and hopefully for me to improve my english.

okok. i shall start the main topic for today. here goes,

TO YOU: who am i to you? just someone you will turn to when you are crying? when you do not have the courage/time to tell people about your troubles? am i someone who you will only turn to when you need help? or am i someone who you will turn to only when you need somethign from me? the more i think about it, the more i feel that i have only one purpose to you, that is to be your listening ear. ok, i might sound like a fish monger here, but i meant it from the bottom of my heart. dun you think that you only look me up when you are down and out? yeah, i am sounding unreasonable, but thats me. the strong looking me, is actually naive and insensitive to certain issues. melissa, right? haha. I am not wrong, i am only trying to get to the crux of the problem. this is how i feel, not sure about you. step forward when you see this. when you know that its you.

ok. now i should direct my post to everyone out there now.

TO ALL: i am a loser. usually when i am really close to someone, their partner (lovers or new found friends) would appers and i will lose them. erm, hopefully you know what i am talking. i am frustrated becasue it always happens on ME!! me! yeah, the innocent me is usually the victim of such a scenario. so should i get angry or sad? sad i guess. yeah, losing to friends is not that bad, as i always say that if i you are good, people will stick to you. but to lovers? come more? is relationship really that important? more important than friendship? haha. i dunno. i have never been in an relationship before.

so ppl, please advice.
ok, shall stop here. as usual, i am new, so i might be using funny english.
bye.